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I think everyone struggles with fear, and how you manage your fear will shape your perception of reality.

http://www.cbsnews.com/video/watch/?id=7383158n

http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2011/1...487.shtml?tag=contentMain;contentBody

Read about Alex Honnold, the reigning free climber in the world. He climbs 2,000-3,000 foot walls with no gear; Just shoes, chalk and his mind.

I have been dealing with anxiety for the last year and a half. For a while I had uncontrollable panic/anxiety attacks every day for a few months, followed by a few months of constant head aches. A few months after life started to become more normal but still the odd migraine. I still feel anxiety over things that use to excite me, like flying or heights or even theme parks.

Everyone has messed up thoughts of dying or conceiving of trauma but those thoughts never affected me before, however after being off Accutane for 4 months, all hell broke lose on my nerves. Is it from the accutane? who knows, I have the same thoughts and perceptions as I always have, but never before in my life did I feel this sort of anxiety/panic/loss of control. I finally knew what millions of people go through that I once thought should be a simple mind/reality control. I had no perception of control and that made it worse.

I believe that no matter how bad you think your nerves are you can still control them, but that just means you have to actively try harder. To be honest, I believe the only thing that sets poker players apart is their focus, their control of the mind. If your nerves/stress/anxieties are too strong they will block your focus in making the most correct play.

When I see Alex Honnold climb up a cliff with no regard for his life, I see Jungleman/Galfond, climbing up the stakes. It's their focus that allows them to make emotionless plays, knowing that if they play correctly they will win.

What helped me the most with my anxiety/panic attacks was focus that I got from starting yoga and reading about mindfulness from a Buddhist. It's has only been 9 months that I've been feeling better'ish, still struggling at times, still struggling to keep my fears low enough to play Midstakes poker. I'm at one of the highest points in my life and yet these last 2 years have been my hardest to live through.

I have been in the pursuit of fearlessness and I believe one day I will find the inner peace to live fearlessly. The process towards this outcome drives me, through genuine intrigue. I hope anyone else struggling at life, or in poker, can find within themselves what they are looking for.

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What sites do you guys know/read about beers, microbrews, so on?

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